Fog

I have been in a fog since Thanksgiving...with good reason.....maybe....maybe not. Busy with this, busy with that, my mind here, my mind there... completely missing what has been going on right in front of me......my children and their constant changing into little people. The other day I sat down with T and E and some play doh, and we played for one hour. It was the first time I have really played with them in I don't know how long. We had so much fun! It was amazing to see how their motor skills had advanced since our last "play doh date" not to mention their language. That night as I lay in bed I couldn't help but feel guilty and regretful. How can I let life get in the way of what is most important?? How can I not have more quality time with my children when I am a stay at home mom?? How can I not find the time to chronicle their lives?? I know in the blink of an eye they will be grown and gone.....gone on their own adventures. I am trying to remind myself to "live in the now," that is all any of us have. I am going to try to write more frequently...not for me or you....for Thomas and Elizabeth....so they can look back and laugh (hopefully) and remember.